my hands shake as i light my cigarette
I haven’t felt this before
a sadness so new to me.
i’ve been sad before, depressed, even suicidal, but this time i dont know what I am. I thought my feelings toward you were real but i’ve come to realize that when i look at you all i can see is her, in the way you walk, the way you talk, everything you do. its a one sided love between her and I, but is that really love? shouldn’t it be returned? for as long as i can remember she has been my world, i lose myself in her eyes. no matter how bad things get just a “hello” from her can turn my world upside down. being in love is the most incredible feeling in the world, knowing the one you love is in love with someone else is the one thing that can destroy your world.
i can see again,
the tears slow down
my hands are calm once again
